Difficult Decisions . . .
As most of you may know, my journey to publication was a tough one (as
so many tend to be). No, it wasn't long, at all (a short five months), but it was tumultuous, and there were many days that I couldn't imagine continuing on. I'm not someone with thick skin, and I take everything personally, internalize it, and dwell/spin/spiral. From rejection letters, to lost contests, to pitching on Twitter and having absolutely no response, I had so much self doubt during my querying days, that I'm surprised I managed to overcome.
But I did overcome.
And, in doing so, I realized that I am definitely a writer. Whether good or bad, published or not, the writing bug bit me and it won't be ignored.
I've also learned that my journey to publication didn't end with publication. It is a constant, evolving road, and I have a feeling I am only just getting started.
As most of you know, I signed with
Curiosity Quills Press back in June of 2012. Initially, I was beyond thrilled. I had a publishing contract! On top of that, I had a publishing contract with a publishing company whose logo was a skull! What could be more fitting for me? I also had the backing of an editor who loved my story, understood my characters, and all-in-all, just 'got' me.
My debut was published in late September 2012, with an "official" release date of October 1st. Publishing EVER was a whirlwind of emotion. I was scared, excited, nervous, happy, and basically running the gamut of every good and bad emotion you can think of! My baby was going out into the world, and I didn't really know what that would mean for me. EVER was my very first completed manuscript. No, not just my first
published manuscript, but the very first book I'd actually
completed. Period. EVER is special, and precious to me, and probably not the best book I'll ever write, but still, she's mine, and I'm proud of the accomplishment.
After having EVER in the world for a few months, I began to feel like something was missing. Something was off. I began to question my choices, question myself, and question my relationship with
Curiosity Quills Press. Eventually, the answer came to me, and it was a difficult one to digest.
During this past year, I've struggled with second-guessing myself. I've struggled with regret--which if you've ever dealt with that feeling, you know it can be a pretty heavy thing. I've struggled with the thought that if some of
CQP's authors are thrilled, but I am not, then it's obviously something I'm doing. Or not doing. Or, maybe I just suck . . .
But then it hit me. I realized that though my choice to sign with
CQP was not a bad choice, it may not have been the
right choice for
me.
Many
talented and amazing people make up the
CQP family. I have learned from them, learned
with them, laughed with them, shared news with them, experienced highs and lows with them . . . as a
family is supposed to do. Many of the
CQP authors are loving life and enjoying their writing careers, as well as their choice to sign with
CQP. They publish book after book, hit Amazon bestseller lists, and basically just love their writing journey and where it is taking them.
Unfortunately, I don't share their enthusiasm, and it has been a very emotionally draining road for me.
After over a year with
CQP, I feel that my heart is leading me down a different path.
I have recently terminated my contracts with Curiosity Quills Press, which was a mutual and friendly break-up, and the rights to The EVER Trilogy have been returned to me.
Moving forward, I will continue to pursue my traditional publishing dreams with DIVIDE, and my recent project, ARK (a modern redux of Noah's Ark), with the help of my literary agent, Marisa Cleveland and The Seymour Agency.
However, with these new developments, the EVER series will take a different path.
The EVER Trilogy's future . . .
EVER: First and foremost, if you have a paperback copy of EVER, treasure it! I'm not completely sure when I will have paperbacks available again, and when I do have them, they won't look exactly the same, obviously. So let's call those current paperbacks collector's items, shall we? Makes them sound speshul.
I plan to re-release EVER via self-publishing in e-book form, in the coming months. I'm throwing in a little something extra for the fans--a few chapter's from Toby's POV, possibly? Why don't you take this quick little poll and tell me what you'd like me to throw into the re-release? Sound fair? :-)
PS. "All of the above" is not an option. Sorry, guys! ;-)
EVADE: The cover photo shoot is scheduled for THIS Tuesday, August 6th! I am so excited, its not even funny! AND, I surprised one of EVER's biggest fans--a book reviewer/blogger from right here in sunny SoCal!--with an invite to join us for the photo shoot! SQUEE! She'll get to meet my awesome photographer (
Face on by Tamara), interview my hottie models (Tracy Stanbury-Ever and
Sean Ciccione-Toby) and hang out with us, documenting the entire day and blogging about it for all of you! Make sure you follow Annabelle Lovell at
Sparkles and Lightning or
on Twitter so you don't miss the awesome behind-the-scenes post in September! She's super excited, which makes me even more excited!
I am still planning on releasing EVADE near the end of September, beginning of October, just a year after EVER was first published. EVADE will be self-published in e-book format, and possibly paperback as well,
depending. This is all
very new to me and I'm taking it day by day, learning as I go, so please bear with me.
BOOK THREE: I'm sure you've already guessed, but Book Three will also be released via self-publishing, and will hopefully be scheduled for a year after EVADE is published, landing that release date around 10/1/2014. (See the pattern here?)
In closing . . .
Regardless of my decision, I will forever stand by my original thoughts on small presses/big presses/self publishing. There is
no right or wrong way to follow your dreams or bring your writing goals to fruition. REMEMBER THAT above all else. Your choices may not be mine, and mine may not be yours, and you know what? THAT IS COMPLETELY OKAY. You need to take charge of your own destiny, your own happiness. So grab that bull by the horns, and turn your dreams into reality--whichever path that may lead you down. This is YOUR career, your passion.
Go with it.
I want to thank the
Curiosity Quills Press family for the experience and knowledge I've gained in this past year, and for being supportive during this difficult decision to part ways. Please know that this decision wasn't made lightly.
Behind the Faerying Mysts, hidden from Mortal eyes, is a land where gods and creatures of myth and legend dwell. And in the Mortal Realm, their Princess is hidden away.
Quinn Sinclair lives an ordinary life with her less-than-loving mother in Conifer, Colorado, clueless of her true nature. On the night of her birthday, a staggering betrayal sends her life spinning out-of-control. As she struggles to pick up the pieces, a vision of a man with haunting tourmaline-blue eyes begs her for help, and she is transported into a Magykal battle-forever changing her life.
Arik Morgaine—Demigod bad boy and outcast of the Magykal Realm—tried to avoid contact with Princess Quinn for eighteen years, not wanting to make good on an old threat. But the fates have other plans. Arik can no longer deny his growing desire for Quinn, or the need to protect her from those wanting to control her burgeoning powers.
Can the two of them come together and save the Magykal Realm from being destroyed by the Darkest of Magyks?
New Adult. Recommended for 18 and above. Mature themes, sexual situations, and profanity.
